I read a post on the (in)Courage website the other day about slowing down. Let’s all slow down, stop rushing, stop trying to fit so much in. Mmmmkay. Sounds delightful. No, really, it does. The person who wrote it doesn’t have the most typical lifestyle, hence it’s a bit hard for me to take in her words. Not that I don’t appreciate the idea, but it just sounds absolutely impossible.
My return to work yesterday went as well as could be expected. Big C and Lil C went to the sitter’s both yesterday and today because Big C didn’t have school today. I actually felt good about having her there, because I knew she would watch closely after Lil C.
Lil C has gotten good reports both days – lots of sleeping, taking bottles great, lots of talking and sweet faces. Thursday she went about 4 hours between each bottle, and today she condensed that a bit, going first four hours and then three hours between the next 2. I am indescribably thankful that she seems to have made the transition well, is drinking her bottles (it’s my milk, not formula, so nothing new to get used to. We’ve been giving her 1 bottle a week since she was 3 weeks old just to get her accustomed to it.)
I have been warmly welcomed at work, for which I am thankful as well. My new office is absolutely delightful. Perfect. Private. Out of the way, but still accessible. It says “I’m available” but it’s enough off-the-beaten-path that I don’t have everyone who blows through the door hanging over my desk. Did I mention, perfect for pumping? I can leave the pump half set-up and plugged in, which shaves a few precious minutes off each session. Two days down, 9 months to go.
So here’s my day. I am totally exhausted at the moment (good thing I’m blogging, then, instead of sleeping, huh?).
5:20am – Wake up and feed Lil C. Re-set alarm clock so I don’t sleep past 6:00am, in case I doze off.
5:45am – try to sneak in another 10 minutes of sleep, get Lil C re-settled to sleep a bit longer before I get her dressed and ready to go. Big C comes in our room to ask something. I don’t know what she wants, she talks to Brian. He tells her to go back to bed because it’s not time to get up yet.
6:00am – up, shower, dress, eat breakfast, double check diaper bag, pack bottles, gather pump parts, pack pump bag including ice pack, start to take stuff out to car, discover it’s raining, think about finding umbrella, subsequently forget about finding umbrella, get big C’s teeth brushed, get Lil C up, dressed, packed into car seat, and car completely loaded.
7:15am – Depart. On time. For the second day in a row. Wonders never cease. The next 1 hour+ involves half my commute, dropping kids off at sitter, getting soaked, and second half of commute. Lil C hates the car seat these days so she screams most of the way. Yippee. Did I mention it is pouring rain?
8:30am – Arrive at work.
8:50am – PUMP. Discover I can pump and hold my BlackBerry at the same time. Little miracles, you know?
9:00am – Get to call someone with good news. The best news, actually. One of those moments that keeps me working.
The morning is filled with continuing to organize my office, find my files and other stuff, a few calls, a few patients, navigating through new EMR system…i did grab lunch with an NP friend, which was a great time to catch up.
1:20pm – PUMP. Time gets away from me so quickly!
The afternoon is filled with more patients, more EMR, and some updates from the office manager. Our IT guy shows up to fix my computer – apparently while I was gone, my (ancient) computer died a valiant death. Good news: it was old, I was due for an upgrade, so I got a brand new computer. Bad news: death of hard drive=loss of all content. There are some things I had backed up on a jump drive and given to one of the other clinical staff before I went on maternity leave. When the office manager said, “Did you have any of that backed up?” “Oh yes!,” I enthusiastically replied. “I put it all on a jump drive right before…” She interrupted me. “They lost that.” Mmmkay. So, yeah I backed it up. But I didn’t back-up my back-up. Probably nothing that is totally irreplaceable, it will just be a matter of having to recreate some forms and things.
Anyway, where was I?…oh yeah, 4:45pm – time to pump again. Do my best to leave before 5:00pm so my elder daughter doesn’t cry when I pick her up about why I was the latest mommy.
4:55pm - Depart. Later than I wanted. Finish up a patient call on my cell on the way home because I know she will take at least 15 minutes and I just can’t stay a minute longer. More commuting, picking up, commuting.
6:00pm – We’re home. (refer back to 7:15am when we left. Great grief, that was 11 hours ago. I’m kinda tired). Figure out dinner. Pancakes. Fancy I know.
6:40pm – Not quite done with pancakes, but Lil C has decided she’s hungry. She gets a bottle of today’s milk because I’m not going to have much to offer her at this point. We got a little out of sync time-wise, but it will be fine by tomorrow.
7:30pm – Off to Kroger. I have to get my life together and get some planned, pre-cookable meals together. I call my dear friend Joy on the way there to get her input about crock pot recipes. She recommends pot roast and roast chicken. Rolling in at 6:00pm every evening makes it nearly impossible to cook something that requires more than about 10 minutes of prep.
8:37pm – Arrive home from Kroger. Unload groceries. Brian is entertaining Lil C but she is fading fast. She is fussy and feisty. She’s definitely ready for bath!
8:45pm - Bath, snack and bedtime for Lil C. Send Big C to bed after she claims her dad told her she could stay up until 10:00pm watching Olivia on nick jr. Uh, no.
9:30pm - Wash 4 bottles, wash pump parts, bag milk for freezer, clean kitchen, Change sheets, clean bathroom, wipe down upstairs with Clorox wipes. Clorox wipes, I love you. Thank you for protecting me thus far.
So now I’m sitting down. I am beat. That’s my day. What was that again about slowing down?Not sure what the weekend holds, but I hope for some rest! And on that note, good night!